Tuesday, July 28, 2009

You Are a Smart Bunch!

This enhancing your fertility gig is my second job right now. Unfortunately, it does not leave me much time for blogging. My addition of frozen wheatgrass juice and vegetable juices seem to be working. Now, if I just had some time for sleep!

TMI Alert Ahead (You've been warned)!
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I am having the most crrraaazy cervical mucus. I shared this with my 51 year old friend, who is currently pregnant with twins from DE. She said, "you mean like the stuff I had back in college?" I said, "yeah, that's the point." I'm completely in awe. It's like back then, when I was in college and I didn't really understand what all this goop was in my underwear. Only now, I feel like I am blowing snot out my va-jay-jay (I did warn you). Em, my acupuncturist, says that you can't have too much cervical mucus. Not a problem right now!

You all were right about the Elk_and_Fairy art work from the card I pulled (see last post). I interpreted it as showing that I have lots of follicles left, and there is one, the big one the fairy is pointing to, that must be "the one". The elk is not my husband. Actually, I thought it was a stag, which is my patronus, another good sign.

It has been hard, staying the course. At first, I was very confident in this new path, but it's a major effort everyday. I question myself constantly. I think of myself as 43, but in reality, I'm still 42!! I really have to work at not letting those negative thoughts get the best of me. The grief started to creep back in as well. Em helped me this last session with communicating with the spirits, including my spirit baby! I didn't know she had it in her. It was very interesting. I also got feedback to trust myself and to continue the juicing! The feedback I got was that it doesn't matter what the number of my age is. The juice is helping to reverse the aging of my cells by preventing oxidation and clearing out free radicals (or something like that). Yes, this was the feedback from Em's spirit helpers. My instincts are right on!

I will request to be retested in September. That will be 90 days since I started the juicing, and about as long since my last lousy test results. If all is well, I want to start the estrogen priming. We'll see if my doctor goes along with my plan. I still have not done a follow up since my test results in June. I figure, what's the rush? I do need to take care of that. One step at a time. Let's hope I can turn the clock back with this crazy juicing obsession of mine.

10 comments:

Mad Hatter said...

I completely agree with diet and lifestyle keeping your cells young. It sounds like you're doing such a wonderful job - I know it's hard and it requires a commitment every day, but we're here to support you. You're doing great!

Sweet Georgia said...

Hmmm, now you're making me want to start juicing. Can't wait to see what your results are in September. I'm so glad that you got affirmation for what you've been feeling.

niobe said...

Yay for cm!!! Um, that sounds a little odd, doesn't it? But you know what I mean.

Sweet Georgia said...

Forgot to mention... I nominated you for the Honest Scrap Award. Check it out here: http://babydancings.blogspot.com/2009/07/i-have-been-honoured.html

Jill M. said...

Yeah for egg white cm!!!!! I'm having tons of it myself since being on the estrogen patches. That's an EXCELLENT sign as it's your follicles that are secreting the hormone to produce cervical mucus (cm). A lack of cm can be from poor growing follies. I'm know it's a lot of work, but keep it up, you're doing good! Can't wait to see your new and improved test results.

Beautiful Mess said...

The juicing is working! That's great news! I'm so glad you got positive feedback from EM. That must have felt AMAZING!

Keep up the good work, hon!
*HUGS*

DAVs said...

Hooray for CM! Only in an infertile world is that an appropriate thing to say...I think :)
Glad things are working out, even though it is a full time job!

mekate said...

I completely support intuitive healing and self care. And the spirit baby, so glad you are reconnected! I feel very distant from my two these days. I am scared to look for them too frantically because if they are truly gone, I will freak out. I like to think we are playing hide and seek.

Your CM means things are going great in terms of your hormones! great news. And me too- I keep thinking 43 when it is just 42.

Thanks for your kind comments on my blog.
It means so much to know that other folks understand my craziness.

best wishes,
Kate

Denver Laura said...

If your results are better you can probably start your own fertility juicing company! I'd be the first in line :)

Sheri said...

I admire how you look within, listen and trust what your intuition and what your body is telling you.